As I wonder what brought us to this point in time, and as I fear to think about what is ahead, I hold my husband’s hand as he lays in the emergency room.
He has had a lot of stress at work, he has had continuing and increasing knee pain which seemed to be aggravated by the doctor’s exam earlier that morning, he is prone to high blood pressure, his iPhone crashed today and we made our first trip to the other-worldly Apple store, and we foolishly went shopping for plants on an asphalt parking lot in a 90 degree April heat wave.
And then his heart started racing. It had happened before, but this time it wouldn’t stop. We came home and he lay down on the bed and it still wouldn’t stop. I left him alone to relax and it still wouldn’t stop. So I said we were going to the emergency room and we did.
They couldn’t have been more professional or more helpful here. He was seen immediately, I was well informed, and most importantly a competent young doctor did a carotid massage and brought his heart rate down without having to inject any chemicals.
At this point he is fine. The tests have come back showing absolutely no heart damage and he is feeling so much better and we are going home soon. We want to find out why this happened, we need to know what to do or not do to keep this from happening again. But for now we are safe. And so very, very thankful.
And then we hear the notes of Brahm’s Lullaby. My first thought is that it is someone’s phone ringing. But my husband is more aware than I am and he senses – he knows – that this is the hospital’s way of letting everyone know that a baby has just entered the world. New life has begun.
For the first time in this ordeal we both have tears in our eyes. The young doctor comes in to give us more positive blood test results and sees these tears and wonders if my husband is OK.
Yes, he is OK and so much more. We know there is so much to live for, so many reasons to make any changes necessary to be more healthy, so many good options in the road ahead. There is new life in this room as well.
He is feeling better and we are immensely, inexpressibly grateful.